SCREAMS!
organic chemistry is driving me nuts. please teach me to love it. gawd. HELP.! im on the verge of giving up. simply cant uds anything. and i haf to take it for 4 years. how great can this get. someone please tell me.


mid terms are drawing near. after tt its the finals. i cant wait to go out, travel, chill, shop etc... anything but study.


organic organic...

DATUK!

One day after the term break... and it still feels like a holiday.

Updates!

26/09-28/09

went to datuk with the trek comm ppl for 2D1N. after tat it was FUN at MALACCA.! it was a gd experience climbing up tt mountain as the gradient is rather steep. i was also amazed at how fast we actually manage to bond with each other and haf fun. (: the encouragement that was given to one another. the help and support we render to each other while conqueoring the mountain. All in all, it was awesome.! =D

P.S. I HAVE TO SAY THIS.! the food that we had at the summit...was.... GREAT! i think its the best food that i ever had while trekking/camping. hahas. =D i miss playing bridge and dai dee with all of them.! ahh!

The only down part was that i had a sprain while coming down. Now, i feel so "handicap". Wells. i just hope my ankle recovers fast. like super fast. i cant wait to start jumping around again and stop missing out on g00d stuff.! hehes =D

5 more days

and its the start of a new chapter in life.. actually, i cant wait to live in a hostel and sometimes i cant help but to wonder hows life gonna be like in uni.
time flies. and sooonnn i will be officially 19 years old.! (: yayness!
wells. lifes been gr8 recently. it can only get better. now, the only reason that im blogging is because i hate packing my things. you see, i haf to get ready for hall life and im shifting in with the girls tml. but sheesh. its such a dread to pack my things! i just feel like shifting my whole room there!! its like i almost need everything inside my room....
i guess i shld stop ranting and motivate myself to pack my stuff b4 its too late. i still have got a show to catch frm 9-11pm. and that leaves me with half an hour for packing. AHHHH.!!! bye.

kinder bueno.
now i know why my brother gets hook onto it.! its simply tooo...... irresistable. (:
the guy is over at bintan having camps. i need some entertainment.! hahas. wells, heres a summay of wad happen ytd.
i became the first "MAC delivery girl" ytd.! andd... IM LOVING IT! (: hahas. brought some food down to SBA. and woah.! some of the matches are definetly worth watching. i love those "neck to neck" competitions. i love watching those matches whereby e players are fighting to outshine their opponents. its interesting. badminton anyone?
now. im just awaiting to go WWW wif my family tml.
goodnight ppl.

again.
i find myself "playing" tug of war.

SENTOSA 110607

thats us on the sentosa express, heading back to vivo city (:
wells, it was fun hanging out with them! hahas. i want more outings!
wells, i never knew that uni appilcation can be so complicating. why cant the handbooks be less wordy and more summarise? goodness. and after filling the application forms, im still wondering if i did everything right and if i missed out anything =x shhheessshhh.

small shopping trip.
after much hesistation, i finally got my crumpler bag! hehes. (: im so happy.! oh wells, my rotting, moulding and decomposing session is finally gonna be over tml.! hahas. gonna head down to sentosa tml wif my friends. hopefully it doesnt rain and i will be able to get a nice tan tml w/o getting sunburn =)
gonna go get some rest now. nights ppl.!

CAMPFIRE.!

yesyes. im back to blog. so dont say i didnt.

wells, i just came back from GG camp ytd. Overall, the camp was gr8. The GUIDES were WOAH.! Its been a long tym since i did a camp and for a moment, i felt rather "rusty" in handling a camp. However, i managed to learn alot from this camp. hehs (: im so glad that cheryl, idam, cheeky and rin were there to help me out! BIG THANKS TO YA PPL.! They were like my hands, legs and eyes during the camp (: Its a great experience, i must say. Some photos frm the camp.

From Top Left (clockwise moment) : Cheeky, idam, rin, cheryl and me!

Them.

Cheryl and me (:

Baby won’t you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don’t wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget.

saying goodbye is probably the toughest thing that we had to do. ya haf become a voice in my head. but i would try to fullfill my promises, no matter how long its gonna take. im gonna smile. Right now, even if it may seem that im living my life for ya. i do nt care. just be that 2 out of 10.
god, please protect him. shelter him.
god, please give us the strength.

break
yeah-ness! im finally done wif my university online application! (: LOL.
break. yupp. a good one week break from camps. time to haf fun and just hang out late wif all my frens and to be dere for this fren of mine. i guess this is wad this whole week is about. (:

pursuit of happiness. paris jet'aime. TMNT. mr beans holiday. AND MORE.. anyone?

its spreading.
ppl are talkin.
friends are wondering.
close friends are asking.
im staring blankly at the television.
thinking that it sucks hurting a good friend.
how strong is this "special" bond?
thanks and im nt takin "it" for granted.
out``
one word : forbbiden.
i guess that sums up everything.

sheesh. i can feel those butterflies in my stomach NOW.
today its d-day. break it or make it. (: im definetly praying for the best.
AHHH!!!


e.e. cummings - i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

i know he understands.
are we living in reality or denial?
reality, i suppose.

I'm...
Born to SMILE
Born to LOVE
Born to HAVE FUN

deyi sec. was great.! the campers were interesting. my group was different and unique in their own ways. without them, i wouldnt be able to learn more and they were fun! (:
the low side of the camp was that there wasnt any high/low elements. just imagine camps without that. i think i know exactly how they feel.
But all werent great with camps...
really?
(:

mood: restless.

RIDIN` by CHAMILLIONAIRE KRAYZIE BONE.
No offence but till now. i find this song super irritating cause someone in camp uses this song as a morning alarm and it never fails to wake me up. Whats worst. it rings non stop for at least half an hour before we actually need to wake up.
Yesterday's mini gathering at nydc was great.! (: at least i enjoyed myself. LOVES* nice company, nice food, nice environment. 7 years of friendship and counting. i miss ya girls. i miss those times. hahas.
Having briefing at dfac tml. hope everything turns out well. (: after that its outing wif frens that we met during the camp. =D and bapok is bookin out tml.! LOL.

Some say im m i s s e a s y t o p l e a s e but..
Why cant humans just tink simply and be simple.
s i m p l i c i t y . t h a t s m e .

time: 5.09pm
currently: rotting!

i haf never feel so bored and restless in my life. everyones working and here i am moulding rotting and decomposing at home. i cooked lunch, iron the clothes, watch tv and even read a book. but nothing seems to be able to settle me down. im still feelin rather restless and bored. gonna meet the girls for dinner tonight. whee. its gonna be so fun! (: LOL. anyway, i chance upon this a few days back and its about hugs.

"Hugging is healthy. It helps the body's immune system, it keeps you healthier, it cure depression, it reduces stress, it induces sleep, its invigorating, its rejuvenating, it has no unpleasant side effects, and hugging is nothing less than a miracle drug.
Hugging is all natural.It is organic, naturally sweet, no pesticides, no preservatives, no artificial ingredients and 100 percent wholesome.
Hugging is practically perfect. There are no movable parts, no batteries to wear out, no periodic check-ups, low energy consumption, high energy yield, inflation proof, nonfattening, no monthly payments, no insurance requirements, theft-proof, nontaxable, nonpolluting and, of course, fully returnable."

im loving it. (:
love being a camp instructor and lookin at all the happy faces after every camp. love the kids. love the companions. love EVERY single bit of it. (:
wells. i just break camp last friday and im gg back to "work" tml. fun or wad. LOL. but.. crap, i lost my blue shirt. damn. i dont wanna spend animore on those shirts. some kind soul better gif it back to me.
was friendster hoppin juz now and it feels like i just get to know lots of "NEW" pple. dere were drastic changes in many of them. Be it their personality, looks or rules abiders to rule breakers. it makes me reflect and think about myself. who am i and who WAS i.? wells. one thing is for sure. im still crazy. still laughing and fooling around. sometimes i feel like im the only one who hasnt grow up and i haven been true to myself =x
P.S. can there ever be platonic relationship between 2 close friends of different genders?
alrights. was blog hopping just now when i saw this on fiona's blog and i decided to do it since im bored. (: i really miss that babe.

Layer ONE- On the Outside
Name: Melissa
Birth Date: 4th Dec 1988
Current Status: Attached
Eye Color: Black?
Hair Color: reddish brown?!
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Saggitarius/ Dragon

Layer TWO - On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinese.
Your Fears: Performing below my expectations
Your Weaknesses: never know when n where to draw my line
Your Perfect Pizza: Hawaiian

Layer THREE - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: I wanna sleep
Your Bedtime: It depends
Your most missed memory: Havin Fun Overseas

Layer FOUR - Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Neither.
McDonald’s or Burger King: Burger King. (I'm sick of Mac)
Adidas or Nike: Adidas.
Lipton tea or Nestea: Lipton tea.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino.

Layer FIVE -Do you
Smoke: Nopes.
Curse: Yeah.

Layer SIX - In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: yupp.
Gone to the mall: yupp.
Been on stage: yeahs!
Eaten sushi: Nopes =(
Dyed your hair: Nope.

Layer SEVEN - Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: Nah.
Changed who you were to fit in: Alil, but it never feels right.

Layer EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married: 27!

Layer NINE - In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: Any colour will do.
Best hair colour: No preference.
Short or long hair: Nt too long. Nt too short =x

Layer TEN - What Were You Doing
1 minute ago: Smsing. Listening to music
1 hour ago: slacking
4.5 hours ago: watching tv? eating lunch?
1 month ago: In NZ, having fun!
1 year ago: Starting my Alevels!

Layer ELEVEN - Finish the sentence
I love: FUN!
I feel: like performing magic and make my blue shirt appear
I hate: spending so much money (For Now ONLY.!)
I hide: you seek? =/
I miss: watching movies.
I need: some entertainment NOW!

Layer TWELVE - Tag 5 people
Anyone.